Looking back Looking forward
Sometimes I'll look back in my journal and can't believe that I wrote something...mainly because I've strayed so far from what my mindset was at that point. I came across this poem of mine that I wrote when I had this realization of surrender and obedience that must happen in order for revival to begin in my heart and life...it was a beautiful time, and I look back on the past number of months with so much regret. Filled with anger and bitterness, jealousy and pride, but I know that God has not abandoned me. He does all things well. I can look to the future with hope instead of fear and sadness.
Lord, please create in me the heart that I had when I wrote this...
And yet it is not vain.
It's not meant to be temporary
Nor fit into a span.For 'tis a concept
Not fit for time,
Though it has stepped
Into your life and mine.Love is never simple.
It comes at a cost.
And we shall never know it,
Until all is lost.It is not, unless Someone pays,
For 'tis more costly
Than we can ever pay.
Jesus knew, and bore it softly.