Looking back Looking forward

Sometimes I'll look back in my journal and can't believe that I wrote something...mainly because I've strayed so far from what my mindset was at that point. I came across this poem of mine that I wrote when I had this realization of surrender and obedience that must happen in order for revival to begin in my heart and life...it was a beautiful time, and I look back on the past number of months with so much regret. Filled with anger and bitterness, jealousy and pride, but I know that God has not abandoned me. He does all things well. I can look to the future with hope instead of fear and sadness.
Lord, please create in me the heart that I had when I wrote this...

Love is never simple,
And yet it is not vain.
It's not meant to be temporary
Nor fit into a span.

For 'tis a concept
Not fit for time,
Though it has stepped
Into your life and mine.

Love is never simple.
It comes at a cost.
And we shall never know it,
Until all is lost.

It is not, unless Someone pays,
For 'tis more costly
Than we can ever pay.
Jesus knew, and bore it softly.

Posterous theme by Cory Watilo